huh

tiba2 aku rasa cam nk mnulis. huh. bez kn klu dpt jd mcm iwase ken dlm cita proposal daisakusen tu. dp kmbali ke masa lampau n betulkan everything. if aku dapat betulkn wrong things, byk yg aku nk btulkan. antaranya
-aku nk jd anak yg berbakti n xtdo ptg2.
-aku nk mtk maaf dgn arwah aq for everything. only now, i realize i love him so much.
-aku xnk ketagih coca-cola
-aku nk blaja bersungguh-sungguh n dpt result straight a+
mmm..tulah sedikit sbyk things yg buat aku betul2 regret sampai lah skrg. namun, aku xleh pndg blkang. aku kna pndg depan.

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smpai skrg aku menyimpan sjuta kekesalan d hati apabila aku memikirkan apa yg aku lakukan kpd arwah. hmmmm.. i really like u but i cant say it when it comes time for it. huh. now, im the one who felt the pain forever and ever. but, as u said, i need to go on n let everythings gone. i have to forget u, datz wat u said. aq, no way i can forget u. u're the sweetest things had happend to me afta my mom n dad loves me so much.

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la, aq syg la.
kata-kata itu amat ku rindu.

ORG ISLAM??

bye2 laptop.........
ksedihan mlanda hatiku.. huhuhu

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honestly aku ckp, aku xrespek lgsung dgn laki yg prnah or ever said prkataan BA**
i hate it. i hate it like a hell. manusia Allah ciptakan sebaik2 kejadian. sggp kita menghina ciptaan Allah yg sebaik-baik kjadian. Ckp bengong pown aku benci. Apalah.. why evry1 is like that. huh. i hate it. really i hate it. boleh blah lah. menjijikkan. ckp nk blaja islam tp, ckp camtu. Islam itu Indah. orang islam, xckp cmtu. huhuhuhuh. tu jerlah luahan hati aku. hope sesapa yg trasa nie, cpt2lah berubah n ingatlah kepada allah. amin. marilah kita doakan mereka supaya berubah.

huh. lega afta evrything has been revealed up.

aq??

knape smpai skrg aku x prnh guna prkataan 'aq' slm mesej aku even evrybodi use it? u want to know why, aq was my first love. no ones know. gmah, im soorry for not tellin u but, all of it happend to fast. i juz cant remember it how. last nite, on my cbox, sumbody said pliz dun use name aqiqi. hehehe. im soo soorry for using ur name. but, in this world, there other person was named like that and he was my first love. i thnk its the time i revealed the story.

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MAC 2009

"mie, mie blh tak, dtg rumah auntie skrg nie?"
"huh, nape auntie?"
"aqiqi skit, dia nk jumpa mimi"
"aq skit?? skit ape auntie?"
"em....demam cmtu lah. but he really wanted to see u now"
"auntie, jadual mie memg pack skrg, cmnie nie?"
"klu g2, tkpelah. itz ok, but do visit him ok?"
"ok! ill visit him soon"

i really regret diz conversation. y did i dunt want to go his house? i dunno why. but, dat was the last call i got from his mother, then, she never called me, untill

APRIL 2009.

"salam, mie, ni aq nie!"
"salam, aq, y didnt u call me? i miss u so much"
"heehehehe. dunt missed me. emmm...im going to uk tomorrw."
"WAT?? Y??"
"i nedd to treat my diseases. i need to be perfect for u. in the mean time, pliz take care of urself and study hard."
"wait2, u going to leave me? what r u havin right now? oh..plizzz, tell me, coz, i always accept the way u are."
"heehehehe..i know, itz just me, i cant let u accept the way i am"

after about 1 hours of querrelling, then i let him go to uk to get some treatment.

end of the month i received a news.

AHMAD AQIQI BIN FARIS DIED.

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until now, still i cant forget him. i dunt have any single pic of him. we known for only juz a few months. NOVEMBER 2008-APRIL 2009. but, that was the best months for me. aq, thnx. i know, u always wanted to tell every1 that u love me, rite, now im telling our story to others so, dat others can understand why im mrs aqiqi. datz why.

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aqiqi ismail, rite? im sorry for using ur name but aq iz my sweetest memories n i want to make it alive. forever n ever.

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semoga AHMAD AQIQI BIN FARIS brada di kalangan org2 yg beriman.

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AHMAD AQIQI had died over brain cancer and he was burried in uk on 25.4.2009.

1. Do you need him to be good looking?

no. i hate hndsome boy!

2. Smart?

yea, dunna to spend my life in ranch

3. Preferred age?

sme age would be better

4. Preferred height?

i can see his eyes, emm..that would be okay. a short little boy would be okay.

5. How about sense of humor?

want lah! haha. or else i'll be laughing alone

6. How about piercings?

eeeeee...datz only for gay, ok?

7. Accepts you for who you are?

a real crap like me???

8. Pink hair?

oh god! i hate pink!

9. Mushy or not?

i like mushy guy. huhu. they more sensitive to our feelin!

10. Thin or fat?

not too thin but fit body. huhu

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?

brown n tanned skinned. its so gay when i saw white man

12. Long hair or short hair?

LOng hair!!!!!

13. Plastic or metal? * cute or pretty?
CUTE!!! KAWAI

14. Smells good?

cn attarct me, well datz enough!

15. Smoker?

hell no. turnoff again. breath stinks. not-so-pinky lips.

16. Drinker?

no.

17. Boy-next-door type?

NO!!!!! Gym type, pliz...

18. Muscular?

every parts of his body. hahaa

19. Plays piano?

ROMANTIC!!!

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?

COOOOOLLLL!!!!

21. Plays violin?

MOHHOBATEIN

22. Sings very good?

YEA! i like it!!!

23. Vain?

no. WAT A LAME DOUH!

24. With glasses?

don't , plizzzz....

25. With bracess?
NO!!!!!

26. Shy type?

no. out-going would be better.

27. Rebel or good boy?

GOOD BOY, PLIZZZZZ....

28. Active or passive?

Active!

29. Tight or bomb? * hot or sexy ?

HOT BODY

30. Singer or dancer?

dancer and singer coz he can sing the dangdut song wit me.

31. stunner?

hell yes. please.please.please!

32. Hip hop?

YEAH!!!!!!!

33. Earrings?

search back for Piercing. falls under same category.

34. Mr. count-my-ex-girlfriends-un

til-you-drop?

no LOSER *Yawn

35. Dimples?

ok, If he's not the one who is obsessed with pouting his lips so that the dimples are showing.

36. Bookworm?

loves him so much

37. Mr count-my-ex gf-un-til you drop
Yes! Romantic!!!!

38. Playful?

yes.

39. Flirt?

yeah! only by that he cn show me his real love buwekkk.. hahaha

40. Poem writer?

YESSSSSSS!

41. Serious?

yes, when in the situation where u have to be serious. more like a matured and responsible man?

42. Campus crush?

no. DUN WANT TO

43. Painter?

HELL, YEAH!!!

44. Religious?

yes. he cn show me the true path.

45. Someone who likes to tease people?

Jerks!

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?

DOTA FREAKS!

47. Speaks 20 languages?

YEAH!! ASHITEIRU

48. Loyal or faithful?

NEITHER. WE LOVE EACH OTHER!!!!

49. good kisser?

yes, totally hot!

50. emotional or cool ?

cool! but, plizzzz be emotional when the times came. plizzzz

aku nk mtk maaf ngan semua org.
sbb
aku nie bdoh.
aggp bnda tu leh buat gurauan,

wat sup?
hehehe
last nite was exciting coz,
i had such a good dream about my parents.
emmm.. u knw wat, i hate every1.
hahaha
every1 such a f***ing bi**ch.
OPSS!

ndalah, juz gurau jer. sumtimes life dunt get the way u want. emm, prnh dlu aku jumpa dgn sum1, dia suka pggl aku bit** but in the end, he's the one who i called fwen. hahaha. wat ever.

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aku rasa memg bebetul mls nk buat kerja. rsa cam nk tdo.