huh

tiba2 aku rasa cam nk mnulis. huh. bez kn klu dpt jd mcm iwase ken dlm cita proposal daisakusen tu. dp kmbali ke masa lampau n betulkan everything. if aku dapat betulkn wrong things, byk yg aku nk btulkan. antaranya
-aku nk jd anak yg berbakti n xtdo ptg2.
-aku nk mtk maaf dgn arwah aq for everything. only now, i realize i love him so much.
-aku xnk ketagih coca-cola
-aku nk blaja bersungguh-sungguh n dpt result straight a+
mmm..tulah sedikit sbyk things yg buat aku betul2 regret sampai lah skrg. namun, aku xleh pndg blkang. aku kna pndg depan.

****

smpai skrg aku menyimpan sjuta kekesalan d hati apabila aku memikirkan apa yg aku lakukan kpd arwah. hmmmm.. i really like u but i cant say it when it comes time for it. huh. now, im the one who felt the pain forever and ever. but, as u said, i need to go on n let everythings gone. i have to forget u, datz wat u said. aq, no way i can forget u. u're the sweetest things had happend to me afta my mom n dad loves me so much.

****

la, aq syg la.
kata-kata itu amat ku rindu.

ORG ISLAM??

bye2 laptop.........
ksedihan mlanda hatiku.. huhuhu

*****

honestly aku ckp, aku xrespek lgsung dgn laki yg prnah or ever said prkataan BA**
i hate it. i hate it like a hell. manusia Allah ciptakan sebaik2 kejadian. sggp kita menghina ciptaan Allah yg sebaik-baik kjadian. Ckp bengong pown aku benci. Apalah.. why evry1 is like that. huh. i hate it. really i hate it. boleh blah lah. menjijikkan. ckp nk blaja islam tp, ckp camtu. Islam itu Indah. orang islam, xckp cmtu. huhuhuhuh. tu jerlah luahan hati aku. hope sesapa yg trasa nie, cpt2lah berubah n ingatlah kepada allah. amin. marilah kita doakan mereka supaya berubah.

huh. lega afta evrything has been revealed up.

aq??

knape smpai skrg aku x prnh guna prkataan 'aq' slm mesej aku even evrybodi use it? u want to know why, aq was my first love. no ones know. gmah, im soorry for not tellin u but, all of it happend to fast. i juz cant remember it how. last nite, on my cbox, sumbody said pliz dun use name aqiqi. hehehe. im soo soorry for using ur name. but, in this world, there other person was named like that and he was my first love. i thnk its the time i revealed the story.

***

MAC 2009

"mie, mie blh tak, dtg rumah auntie skrg nie?"
"huh, nape auntie?"
"aqiqi skit, dia nk jumpa mimi"
"aq skit?? skit ape auntie?"
"em....demam cmtu lah. but he really wanted to see u now"
"auntie, jadual mie memg pack skrg, cmnie nie?"
"klu g2, tkpelah. itz ok, but do visit him ok?"
"ok! ill visit him soon"

i really regret diz conversation. y did i dunt want to go his house? i dunno why. but, dat was the last call i got from his mother, then, she never called me, untill

APRIL 2009.

"salam, mie, ni aq nie!"
"salam, aq, y didnt u call me? i miss u so much"
"heehehehe. dunt missed me. emmm...im going to uk tomorrw."
"WAT?? Y??"
"i nedd to treat my diseases. i need to be perfect for u. in the mean time, pliz take care of urself and study hard."
"wait2, u going to leave me? what r u havin right now? oh..plizzz, tell me, coz, i always accept the way u are."
"heehehehe..i know, itz just me, i cant let u accept the way i am"

after about 1 hours of querrelling, then i let him go to uk to get some treatment.

end of the month i received a news.

AHMAD AQIQI BIN FARIS DIED.

****

until now, still i cant forget him. i dunt have any single pic of him. we known for only juz a few months. NOVEMBER 2008-APRIL 2009. but, that was the best months for me. aq, thnx. i know, u always wanted to tell every1 that u love me, rite, now im telling our story to others so, dat others can understand why im mrs aqiqi. datz why.

****

aqiqi ismail, rite? im sorry for using ur name but aq iz my sweetest memories n i want to make it alive. forever n ever.

****

semoga AHMAD AQIQI BIN FARIS brada di kalangan org2 yg beriman.

****

AHMAD AQIQI had died over brain cancer and he was burried in uk on 25.4.2009.

1. Do you need him to be good looking?

no. i hate hndsome boy!

2. Smart?

yea, dunna to spend my life in ranch

3. Preferred age?

sme age would be better

4. Preferred height?

i can see his eyes, emm..that would be okay. a short little boy would be okay.

5. How about sense of humor?

want lah! haha. or else i'll be laughing alone

6. How about piercings?

eeeeee...datz only for gay, ok?

7. Accepts you for who you are?

a real crap like me???

8. Pink hair?

oh god! i hate pink!

9. Mushy or not?

i like mushy guy. huhu. they more sensitive to our feelin!

10. Thin or fat?

not too thin but fit body. huhu

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?

brown n tanned skinned. its so gay when i saw white man

12. Long hair or short hair?

LOng hair!!!!!

13. Plastic or metal? * cute or pretty?
CUTE!!! KAWAI

14. Smells good?

cn attarct me, well datz enough!

15. Smoker?

hell no. turnoff again. breath stinks. not-so-pinky lips.

16. Drinker?

no.

17. Boy-next-door type?

NO!!!!! Gym type, pliz...

18. Muscular?

every parts of his body. hahaa

19. Plays piano?

ROMANTIC!!!

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?

COOOOOLLLL!!!!

21. Plays violin?

MOHHOBATEIN

22. Sings very good?

YEA! i like it!!!

23. Vain?

no. WAT A LAME DOUH!

24. With glasses?

don't , plizzzz....

25. With bracess?
NO!!!!!

26. Shy type?

no. out-going would be better.

27. Rebel or good boy?

GOOD BOY, PLIZZZZZ....

28. Active or passive?

Active!

29. Tight or bomb? * hot or sexy ?

HOT BODY

30. Singer or dancer?

dancer and singer coz he can sing the dangdut song wit me.

31. stunner?

hell yes. please.please.please!

32. Hip hop?

YEAH!!!!!!!

33. Earrings?

search back for Piercing. falls under same category.

34. Mr. count-my-ex-girlfriends-un

til-you-drop?

no LOSER *Yawn

35. Dimples?

ok, If he's not the one who is obsessed with pouting his lips so that the dimples are showing.

36. Bookworm?

loves him so much

37. Mr count-my-ex gf-un-til you drop
Yes! Romantic!!!!

38. Playful?

yes.

39. Flirt?

yeah! only by that he cn show me his real love buwekkk.. hahaha

40. Poem writer?

YESSSSSSS!

41. Serious?

yes, when in the situation where u have to be serious. more like a matured and responsible man?

42. Campus crush?

no. DUN WANT TO

43. Painter?

HELL, YEAH!!!

44. Religious?

yes. he cn show me the true path.

45. Someone who likes to tease people?

Jerks!

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?

DOTA FREAKS!

47. Speaks 20 languages?

YEAH!! ASHITEIRU

48. Loyal or faithful?

NEITHER. WE LOVE EACH OTHER!!!!

49. good kisser?

yes, totally hot!

50. emotional or cool ?

cool! but, plizzzz be emotional when the times came. plizzzz

aku nk mtk maaf ngan semua org.
sbb
aku nie bdoh.
aggp bnda tu leh buat gurauan,

wat sup?
hehehe
last nite was exciting coz,
i had such a good dream about my parents.
emmm.. u knw wat, i hate every1.
hahaha
every1 such a f***ing bi**ch.
OPSS!

ndalah, juz gurau jer. sumtimes life dunt get the way u want. emm, prnh dlu aku jumpa dgn sum1, dia suka pggl aku bit** but in the end, he's the one who i called fwen. hahaha. wat ever.

*****

aku rasa memg bebetul mls nk buat kerja. rsa cam nk tdo.

proposal diasakusen

life iz not juz happening in a blink of an eye.
thnx to dat series, now, i finally be in the best condition. hahaha. i mean, i never regret wat i have done. bfore diz, i juz thnk of everyone think but now i realize that i need to do things dat really satisfied me. yes, mr cute already know dat i like him. so, wat?? does it kill me when he rejected me? no, right? at least he knws wat i thnk of him. huhuhu.

iwase ken, thnx for bringing dat meaning to my life. i promised to live my life to the fullest. love is the best n love is the worst.

aku benci CBOX aku!

long-distance relationship?

now i know long distance relationsgip wont work.
huh. wat about me n dat sabahan boy?
after i see his fwens broke up wit his gf,
it mades me think, wat if i m dat girl and
mr cute is that boy, hmmmm......
he's at sabah n i'm at kelantan. datz CRAZY!

before i gained so much feelin for him, let me clear diz
we wont work and i dunno but i can felt his fwen sadness or wat?
huh. luckilly i realize it earlier. yes i can like him. just like ok?
luckilly.

but. why they broke up? it wonders me. is it really bcoz of long-distance relationship. i mean itz like sabah n perak. but, in my opinion, ld will work if they love each other, have faith in their heart. but, datz my opinion. wat i can see, everybody iz crashing down after they got diz ld relationship. huh. itz hurt me to see everyone crashing down. i hate to see man hurtin over a girl. i hate to see girl hurtin bcoz of boys. watz wrong with diz world?

huhu.
mata aku dh nk tercabut nie
tlg!!
setelah semalaman n sharian aku berhempas pulas mnyiapkan assgmnt aku.
alhamdullilah siap jua akhirnya.

****

semalam, aku dh pndai download lgu2. memg aku kuno sket bab tenet nie. hehe. aku dh down laod lgu yg btl2 buat aku mngis. aku dh post lirik dia. nma lgu tu tumse hi. bca n hayatilah. lgu tu mcm univrsal, xtrtakluk hnya untk lovey dovey jer. mom n daughter pown blh. xtually bila aku dgr lgu tu aku tringt kt ma aku. hehehe. im such a baby. missin mom like 10 years old kid. but siyesly, i miss my mom, my dad, n my lil sis, ayu. ble r nk blik?

****

hduh.. feelin lah plak ptg2 nie. aku dtg utp pown coz my mom n my dad. klu ikutkan hti, aku nk blaja sal bakery. coz dh lma gler aku mnt bakery but in the same time, i like engineering. bakery was the best job for me. hehehe. memg xspadan lgsg dgn personaliti aku yg serabai nie. huh. tp, ye lah, mnusia, bile dgr cos seni kulinari, msti dpndng rendah. aku xmhu ma n pa dpndg rendah, jd, ble aku ambik engineering nie, hopes dpt mmbggakan parents aku. aku xprnh membggakan parents aku. ye lah, im a stupid kid since i was in primary skul untill now. but, mybe coz i never betrayed them, n god bless me, i got the highest result for spm in my family. alhamdullilah. if compared to my bro, they are more making my parent proud. they go to prestigate skul where i just go to ordinary skul. they can communicate well, where, i just a little girl that cant speak to others freely. they can go to prestigate university. my bro doesnt have bad attitude like me such waking up ver late in the morning, loud voices, lazy, they were perfect son while im the bad daughter. i can see happiness in their faces, where im just getting struggled to survive in life. finnaly, impian aku untk ke oversea trut trkubur. but im heppy here. i hope, i can satisfied them with my sweat.

****

for my mom n my dad

Ibu bergenang air mataku
Terbayang wajahmu yang redup sayu
Kudusnya kasih yang engkau hamparkan
Bagaikan laut yang tak bertepian

Biarpun kepahitan telah engkau rasakan
Tak pula kau merasa jemu
Mengasuh dan mendidik kami semua anakmu
Dari kecil hingga dewasa

Hidupmu kau korbankan
Biarpun dirimu yang telah terkorban
Tak dapat kubalasi akan semua ini
Semoga Tuhan memberkati kehidupanmu ibu

Ibu kau ampunilah dosaku
Andainya pernah menghiris hatimu
Restumu yang amatlah aku harapkan
Kerana disitu letak syurgaku

Tabahnya melayani kenakalan anakmu
Mengajarku erti kesabaran
Kau bagai pelita di kala aku kegelapan
Menyuluh jalan kehidupan

Kasihanilah Tuhan ibu yang telah melahirkan diriku
Bagaikan kasih ibu sewaktu kecilku
Moga bahgia ibu di dunia dan di akhirat sana...

Kasih sayangmu sungguh bernilai
Itulah harta yang engkau berikan
Ibu... dengarlah rintih hatiku untukmu ibu

tum se hi

It isn’t a gain but isn’t a loss either
If I don’t belong to you, why should I exist at all?
The day breaks only with you.
The dark nights comes with you, only with you

The breathe never ceases
Only you are part of every conversation, only you
It isn’t a gain but isn’t a loss either
If I don’t belong to you, why should I exist at all?

I am looking with your eyes
I am touching with your hand
There is nothing left in me, what happened?
I am speacking with your word
My nights are your greeting gifts
WHy did everything become yours, what happened?

Whereever I go,
It is only you that I meet, only you
There is silence in noise,
There is sight unconsiousness that you cause,ony you

Sometimes half a promise,
is more than just a half.
This is how I shall be faithful to you
May be it never be lost or discharged,
may be it never breaks or ruptures,
that thread of loyality that join me with you

I am you shy one
I am like that because of you, just because of you
The roads are found, the destinations are reached only with you,only with you

It isn’t a gain but isn’t a loss either
If I don’t belong to you, why should I exist at all?
The day breaks only with you.
The dark nights comes with you, only with you

td, aku pergi sma smart grup sma tiara. hepi bha. hehehe.
tdalah, aku dpt stu pngajaran dlm hdp aku yg bru tg td.

life can change anytime

situasi prtama

tiara ad citer:

dlu, dia ad fwen, nme sonia. tiara ckp, dludia ad geng. emm 9 org kowt. n mse awl form 5, sonia tetiba skt. cam pnyakit skizo kowt. hah. mcm tetiba jer dia skt. so, mcm kjutan lh. tiara pown ckp, sjk dri tu dia brubah. alhamdullilah. syukur kpd allah. n sonia pown dh shat skrg cuma xsmbg blaja lah.

konklusi:

cuba korg pk, kalau tiara xbrubh..aku xdpt kwn cam tiara.herm.

situasi kedua

syafiq : mie, tau dah ker aj duk kt wad?
mimi : WAT???
syafiq : em, dh nazak dah.
mimi : plizz, ape nie?

thatz the climax of the story. actually, honestly, i hate chemistry before. and i never get a for chemistry. until two months before we gong to sit for our trial, my beloved teacher askin us to do a progamme called mentor-mntee. it scares me. luckilly my mentor was mus my fwen. aj. with her, i learn a lotthings about chemistry and she became my idol for chemistry coz she never get b. it's vice versa. and, i study hard untill i got 90 in trial but the trial was extremelly damn easy.but, i think it is bcoz of her too.

sunday, i got the result. monday, she's gone.

then, itz killin me for one month for not thanking her. i cant live with untill, my fwen told me plizz dunt leave me. he cried. now i knw, i need to be strong for chemistry. i need to live up her spirit.

knklusi:
i need to be perfect in chemistry. aj, thnx for everytim. u r my fwen forever n ever. thnx.

****

huh. see?? mai blh mnjemput kita bila2 aja. im not in the mood of happy rite now n i'm started to think of her again. but i wont be like before.

****

esk ad class pre-cal. dunno why but i started to fallin for pre-cal nowadays. i'm get addicted to pre-cal. hahaha.

aku nk blik rumah
aku nk blik rumah
aku nk blik rumah
aku nk blik rumah

****

Tum paas aaye yun muskuraaye
Tum paas aaye yun muskuraaye
Tumne na jaane kya sapne dikhaaye

Tum paas aaye yun muskuraaye
Tum paas aaye yun muskuraaye
Tumne na jaane kya sapne dikhaaye
Abto mera dil jaage na sota hai
Kya karoon haye kuch kuch hota hai
Kya karoon haye kuch kuch hota hai

Tum paas aaye yun muskuraaye
Tum paas aaye yun muskuraaye
Tumne na jaane kya sapne dikhaaye
Abto mera dil jaage na sota hai
Kya karoon haye kuch kuch hota hai
Kya karoon haye kuch kuch hota hai

Na jaane kaisa ehsaas hai
Bujhti nahi hai kya pyaas hai
Kya nasha is pyar ka
Mujhpe sanam chhane laga
Koi na jaane kyun chain khota hai
Kya karoon haye kuch kuch hota hai
Kya karoon haye kuch kuch hota hai


Kya rang laayee meri dua
Ye ishq jaane kaise hua
Bechainiyon mein chain
Na jaane kyoon aane laga
Tanhaayee me dil yaaden sanjota hai
Kya karoon haye kuch kuch hota hai
Kya karoon haye kuch kuch hota hai

Tum paas aaye yun muskuraaye
Tumane na jaane kya sapne dikhaaye

Tum paas aaye yun muskuraaye
Tumane na jaane kya sapne dikhaaye
Abto mera dil jaage na sota hai
Kya karoon haye kuch kuch hota hai
Kya karoon haye kuch kuch hota hai

****

nk tau mknanyer...?

****

Tum paas aaye, yun muskuraaye - 2
You came close, smiled like this
Tumne na jaane kya sapne dikhaaye
You don't know what dreams you showed me
Tum paas aaye, yun muskuraaye
You came close, smiled like this
Tumne na jaane kya sapne dikhaaye
You don't know what dreams you showed me
Ab to mera dil jaage na sota hai
Now my heart is neither awake nor asleep
Kya karoon haaye, kuch kuch hota hai - 2
What can I do, oh, something is happening

--FEMALE--
Tum paas aaye, yun muskuraaye
You came close, smiled like this
Tumne na jaane kya sapne dikhaaye
You don't know what dreams you showed me
Ab to mera dil jaage na sota hai
Now my heart is neither awake nor asleep
Kya karoon haaye, kuch kuch hota hai - 2
What can I do, oh, something is happening

--MALE--
Na jaane kaisa ehsaas hai
I don't know what experience this is
Bujhti nahin hai kya pyaas hai
It doesn't get quenched, what thirst this is

--FEMALE--
Kya nasha is pyaar ka
What intoxication of love
Mujhpe sanam chhaane laga
Has spread upon me, sweetheart

--MALE--
Koi na jaane kyoon chain khota hai
No one knows why our peace gets lost
Kya karoon haaye, kuch kuch hota hai
What can I do, oh, something is happening

--FEMALE--
Kya karoon haaye, kuch kuch hota hai
What can I do, oh, something is happening


--FEMALE--
Kya rang laayi meri dua
What color my prayer has brought
Yeh ishq jaane kaise hua
I don't know how this love happened
Bechainiyon mein chain
In this restlessness
Na jaane kyoon aane laga
I don't know why peace has started to come

--MALE--
Tanhaai mein dil yaadein sanjota hai
In loneliness my heart sorts through memories
Kya karoon haaye, kuch kuch hota hai
What can I do, oh, something is happening

--FEMALE--
Kya karoon haaye, kuch kuch hota hai
What can I do, oh, something is happening

--MALE--
Tum paas aaye, yun muskuraaye
You came close, smiled like this
Tumne na jaane kya sapne dikhaaye
You don't know what dreams you showed me

--FEMALE--
Tum paas aaye, yun muskuraaye
You came close, smiled like this
Tumne na jaane kya sapne dikhaaye
You don't know what dreams you showed me

--MALE--
Ab to mera dil jaage na sota hai
Now my heart is neither awake nor asleep
Kya karoon haaye, kuch kuch hota hai
What can I do, oh, something is happening

--FEMALE--
Kya karoon haaye, kuch kuch hota hai
What can I do, oh, something is happening

****

if i had quizzes about song suits me right now, i think this is the best one.
hehe

kwnku.

kwnku.
mengertilah, aku bukan sempurna
mengertilah, aku punya kelemahan
mengertilah, aku punya tabiatku sndiri
mengertilah, aku punya perasaan jua
mengertilah, aku punya hati
mengertilah, aku juga ad hak utk diriku
mengertilah, aku hidup bukan untukmu
mengertilah, aku juga ad pndirian
mengertilah, aku perlukan sokongan mu
mengertilah, aku perlukan dorongan mu
mengertilah..

itu jer yg aku pinta. coz pershabatn bukan satu bentuk prhambaan tp perkongsian rasa n impian, harap kau mngerti kwanku.

*****

mr cute iz the best!

hariku yg mlg@hapy???

what the heck???

last nite i had a dream.

a teribble dream.

i dream of fakri faiz.

who is him?

i also dunt know.

dunt ask me coz i hate it.

he knows dat i like mr. cute.

wat the heck iz goin on with my mind?

i hate him when he said,

"i know u well n i know who iz mr.cute"

ohh.. pliz.

i hate it. pliz let go of me.

i hate every1

*********

yesterday.

i know sumtin

my fwen hates me

y dunt she just honest with me?

i hate her

i hate her so much

blah lah.

mr cute or abg cute?

td, dgn kaki n minda yg memberontak, aku bgn n prgi mndi. siap jer aku mandi, rumet aku ckp,"mie, mkn kul 8 ek?" aku pown jwb ok. aku thu dia nk pergi jumpa buah hti dia. gembira di awangan bdk tu. hehe. then, aku prgi mkn. jumpa abg cute but not mr. cute. dia sym aku, adalah usha2 cket. phewit. chya menerangi jiwa aku. huhu. then fakhrur ckp nk brlatih pakai slndng. kte org pown teman lah.. ooooopss! aku nampak mr cute kt cimb. nsb baik kwn dia xnmpak aku break scara mgejut. hehehe. dia pkai bju kuning kowt ai ni. msa aku nk blik, aku nmpak dia n aku sym lah. dia sym kt aku blik. yahhhhoooO!

life iz so exciting

*****

aku mnt dua2 coz diorg ad gen2 cute

hahahaha

DUNIA. AKU BENCI KAMU

i wanna be flower.
can i?

huh

************

today was the most day ever.
i wanna eat, dunt hav any thing dat interest me.
i wanna sleep, but my stomach hurt a lot.
i wanna do the pre-cal, but i hate it.
i wanna see him but cannot
i wanna learn physics but i sleep in the class
SHIT!
i hate when i started to sleep in classes.
i wanna to do the tutor, but wth of question!
i dunno hoe to do it.
my heart breaks into 2 today.

huh.

*************

but,

there sumtin that i like about today

i manage

to write

1115 words in 15 minutes.

that`s new record.

but, i think at the moment i write, im in my own world.

world full of words.

i like it a lot!!

now, finally i found myself.

********

aku rindukn dia. aku nk jumpa dia. aku nk dia.

pabila htiku sdeh

sdehnyer

qi, blo nk jupo nie??

aduyai

sdeh dooh doh nie.

tlg!

berubah arah?

btl ko nie?? hahaha. tp, xheran lah. kte org pmpuan klate pown blh cri hok laen. pd pndpat aku lah, aku thu knapa lelaki klate mula brubh arah.

the reasons are:

1. pompuan klate dh mkin mju, mkin educated, jd, ramai yg kje besau2. jd, sbgai pncri nfkah, of coz lah trcbar ego beb!

2. disbbkn trf pndidkn pmpuan klate smkin mengkat, jd, lelaki2 nie dh xblh nk tipu kte org n kwen reramai. statistik dh mnunjukkan, kdar poligami trtggi di mlaysia adlh di klate. dgn pndidikan, kaum hawa dpt memprthnkan diri mrka dri mnjdi mgsa poligami syp. jd, nk kwen rmai xbrpeluang lh.

3. yg ini, maaflah ye, kaum hawa, tp, sape yg mkn cili, dialh trasa pdasnya.. dh rmai pmpuan di klate yg brjaya mnunjukkan mahkota ksygnnya kpd public. impian untk mnjdi public figure dh trcapai, tp bg lelaki, diorg tolak tepi2 pmpuan cmni.

4. lelaki klate ni xromantik.. haha. pompuan klate xsir. jd, doh xdop ore doh nk ko dia, diorg cri yg laen lah... hahaha

aku rsa tu jrlah kowt yg dpt aku tulis stkt nie. nnti aku pegi buat survey lg n akn lporkn di blog aku. tp, prcyalah.. lelaki yg baik hnya untuk pmpuan yg baik. tu dh trtulis dlm kitab suci al-Quran. jd, jodoh pertemuan adalh di tgn tuhan. amin.

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mana awk ni mr.cute???????

akhirnya...

stlh aku brhempas pulas, akhirnya sdah siap assgmnt aku.. even bru chptr 5 yg aku buat. hahaha. there still 3 chptr to go on.. huh, hope still cn move to finish it.

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hope to see him today. coz i really miss him like hell. i need to see him tomorrow or i'll be so damn crazy tomorrow. huhuhuh.

ingt kamu

Apakah Ini Namanya Cinta
Begitu Membingungkan
Aku Ini Sedang Jatuh Cinta
Kutanyakan Mengapa Hatiku Resah
Hatiku Gundah Semuanya Jadi Serba Salah

Aku Mau Makan Kuingat Kamu
Aku Mau Tidur Juga Kuingat Kamu
Aku Mau Pergi Kuingat Kamu
Ooo Cinta Mengapa Semua Serba Kamu

Aku Sedang Bingung Kuingat Kamu
Aku Sedang Sedih Juga Ingat Kamu
Aku Sedang Bosan Kuingat Kamu
Ooo Cinta Inikah Bila Ku Jatuh
Jatuh Cinta ...

Semua Tertawa Lihat Tingkahku
Menjadi Tak Menentu
Ini Salah Begitu Pun Salah
Kutanyakan Mengapa
Hatiku Resah, Hatiku Gundah
Semuanya Jadi Serba Salah

Aku Mau Makan Kuingat Kamu
Aku Mau Tidur Juga Kuingat Kamu
Aku Mau Pergi Kuingat Kamu
Ooo Cinta Mengapa Semua Serba Kamu

Aku Sedang Bingung Kuingat Kamu
Aku Sedang Sedih Juga Kuingat Kamu
Aku Sedang Bosan Kuingat Kamu
Ooo Cinta Inikah Bila Ku Jatuh
Jatuh Cinta...

Kucoba untuk cari jalan

Karena ku hilangkan semua bosan

Tapi kenapa wajahmu slalu

Datang mengganggu...

Apakah Ini Namanya Cinta
Begitu Membingungkan

org yg ku syg?

Selamat tinggal sayang ku
Semoga engkau bahagia Bersama kekasih baru
Dan biarlah aku membawa diri
Walaupun berat hatiku
Sewaktu melepaskanmu
Tetapi apa dayaku
Antara kita dah tak sehaluan
Ada kalanya aku termenung mengenang sikapmu
Pandainya engkau mengukir janji
Lalu kau memungkiri
Sepi kurasa perjalananku
Penuh duri rindu
Sehingga fikiranku tak menentu
Cintaku melayang-layang
Wajahmu terbayang-bayang
Orang yang ku sayang-sayang
Kini dah disambar orang
Perit hatiku tidak terkata
Oh...bisanya
Selamat tinggal wahai sayang ku
Terima kasih kerana engkau
Sanggup melukakan hatiku ini
Walaupun berat hatiku
Sewaktu melepaskanmu
Tetapi apa dayaku
Antara kita dah tak sehaluan

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huh, pergilah engkau..aku relakan... mata aku dh ngantuk n aku dh stat jwg.. walaupun, hati ini dilukai namun, aku msh mnyayangi mu... hahahaha... gler tul kuasa ayat bm! hahaha..

****** REMY ISHAK *******

lelaki pujaan aku buat slama2nya. oh remy, aku suka banget sma kamu. hahaha. aku hrp stu hari nanti, aku brpeluang jumpa dgn remy ishak yg hnsem n macho ini.

REMY, TGGU AKU!!!!

akhrnya...
mata aku dh stat ngantuk.. now, time to sleep!!!!

selamat malam dunia

aaaaa
jwa ku kacau!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hope iz left for me to hoping

ape kes???

beg dh simpn,
cdar dh hmpr,
bku dh kemas,
apa lg aku nk buat??

haduih, jwa aku kacau.

apa aku nk buat? jwa aku dh stat kacau. aku dh stat rndukn laki tu. aku plg xsuka bla aku stat rindukn seseorg cz aku akn buat bnda2 yg plik2. cntohnya, teguk coke, simpn blik, bsuh bju, n semua bnda yg aku xsuka buat. prnh aku teguk dua btl 1.5 L coke gara2 rndukn sum1. aku memg btl2 xsuka . huh .

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nk thu sumthing x?

haaaa...nie cite dh lme aku pndm, skrg aku dlm mood nk brcerita.

dlu, aku prnh sygkan sorg laki, nma dia Firdaus. nma keramat bgi diri aku. hehe. aku sygkn dia msa aku form 1 ag sampailah form 4. dipendekkn cerita, aku dgr dia kapel. dgn bezfwen aku yg dh lme thu ak mnt kt dia plak tu. memg msa tu aku xmrh pn kt kwn aku, kt pdah pn aku xmrh. tp, aku slalu mngis. dh byk laki aku tolak, dsebabkn dia. n aku buat kptsan ak nk sygkn dia even dia kapel. then, aku still sygkn dia. ok, noktah. tetiba, dia mcm xhrmat lgsg prasaan aku even dia thu aku mnt kt dia. dia date dpn aku, bg hadiah kt kwn ak, dpn aku. aku scra tdak lgsg, amat trggu hdp aku. aku rsa tramat bdoh krana meminati laki cmtu. kesedhn aku tu trbwa2 smsa aku spm. nsb baik result still ok.

then,

aku smbg blaja kt utp. aku jumpa sum1 yg btl2 buat aku sdr, buat apa aku tggu dia if aku dh thu dia bukan untuk aku. aku mcm terkna kjut elektrik. aku tetiba sdar. rupanya aku bdoh slama nie. aku tggu bnda yg ak dh thu aku xdpt.

skrg,

aku bgga hdup sbgai solo molo!! but in the same time..

qie, thanx 4 everything!!!!!!!!
u make me realize about the reality of life
ARIGATO!

rahsia kjayaan???

td, kwn aku citer sal rhsia kjayaan.
hmmmm.. aku mula ktawa.

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ok, syamimi, blh awk brithu rhsia kjayaan awk mndpt 10a.

hah?????

ye lah, awk kn dpt 10a. blh lah brkgsi dgn adk2 awk nie.

em... pg, sy mai skul, then kul 5 sy blik, sy tdo dlu, kul 6.30 bgn, buat kje then kul 10, 11 g2 tdo lah.

WAT???

em??? why??

itu jer, peta minda ad? nota2 rgkas ker?

xder. sy juz bca buku teks, kji soalan lepas then tu jerlah kowt.

OH MY GOD!!! WTF


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moral of the story, the way we learn r different from everyone, datz why we have to knw ourself then we will know the way we stdy. hahaha, hri tu, semua adk2 aku trkjut dgr cra aku stdy. tp stu jer yg memng aku pegang smpai skrg dat iz NO COUPLE. coz, aku dh lihat byk, pljr2 yg bjk nie rma yg lingkup coz couple. so, tu jer lah yg aku dpt bgga kn smpai hari ni. hahaha..

diatas adlh prbualan aku dgn ckgu aku d hdpn pljr2 5 sgma. yg biru tu ak, then yg merah tu cikgu ksygn aku.

SMKKB, TRIMAS!!!!!!!!!

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SAAT PERTAMA KITA BERJUMPA ENGKAU MENINGGI DIRI
KATAMU AKU TAK LAYAK UTK MEMILIKI CINTAMU
TAK KU PEDULI KERANA ENGKAU YANG TETAP KU MAHU
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MILIKKU

AKU TAKKAN PERNAH
MELUKAKAN PERASAAN
HATIMU
KERNA KU MENCINTAIMU

hidup ini indah bila semuanya berbunga cinta namun, pernah kah kita terfikir, siapa yg mngurniakan cinta yg hakiki di dalam jiwa kita? siapa yg mncipta jwa kita? sudah tentu nya Pencipta kita.

bagi aku, cinta yg hakiki hanyalah kepadaNya, namun aku bersyukur, kerna adanya cinta aku lebih knl erti khdpn, erti prshabtan, erti ksh syg, erti pngorbanan. semua kerna cinta. meskipn, aku xprnah memiliki cnta seorg lelaki, namun, aku bhgia dgn hdp aku. dan cnta aku hnya utk yg lyk memiliki shj.

p/s : apasal aku jwg semcm nie??? haha.

hatiku resah

"mie, ko thu ble result??"

setiap hri, aku dhujani dgn prtanyaan ini, thu x btapa aku benci dgn prtanyaan itu?? aku letih nk menjwb stiap prtanyaan itu.. akhirnya, stlh diumumkan d brita bhwa RESULT 11 MAC hndphone aku syp..hahaha..akhrnya..now, kte semua diam dlm kedebaran menanti result yg bakal muncul xlama lg..aaaaaa..dbarnya hatiku ini..stiap mlm aku menantikan kata2 dri teman ku..

"sbar mie, everythings gonna be fine"

namun, kta2 itu xprnh hinggap di telinga ku..huh...jd, smkin bdbrlah hatiku ini..kini hanya tggal aku sbg pejuang smkkb yg trcinta untuk mgharumkan nma baik skul ksygn aku tu..hah...lthnya hidup ini..esok,pd pkul 10 mlm, bas dri ipoh ke utp akan bertolak, begitu jg lah aku..aku akan pulang ke KELANTAN untuk mengambil result yg kini sudah brada di hujung tnduk..huhuhu...

SMKKB TUNGGU KEPULANGAN KU!!!!